The Past Pt. 7

“Love Of My Own”

The beginning was like a dream we were the perfect couple,
But somewhere along the line we started heading for trouble.
So we decided to take a break and go our separate ways,
With the understanding that it was for a limited number of days.
While on the break another man toyed with your life,
And while yes I did hurt me I couldn’t let go of my future wife.
Besides it’s technically not cheating if we’re technically not together,
But is it wrong of me to expect both of us to be better?
Well we got back together and sure enough things got better,
But much like the first time there was a change in the weather.
I said “do what you must do, because I want you to stay,
I want you in my life; I don’t want you to go away.”
I knew that it would hurt, but I loved you too much to lose you,
And the first time it worked, but the second time I had no clue.
That your heart would end up in the arms of a stranger,
And I would end up in this emotional love triangle.
Lucky for us I got a huge promotion,
It was closer to you so we could handle these emotions.
The arguments were getting louder and the fights more intense,
So I quickly moved up-state because I thought it was distance.
It was for me a new career and for us a new start,
But it ended up being just another broken heart.
It wasn’t entirely your fault; I know I became complacent,
But was that really a reason to take the last two years and waste it?
Now I’m struggling to hold on minute by minute,
If I’d only known sooner that your heart wasn’t fully in it.
I have to hold on; I know things will get better,
I can’t fall apart; I have to keep myself together.
I thought it was over but now the search must continue,
The search to find my soul-mate; what I thought I’d found in you.
Now I have to start over in more ways than one,
I refuse to give up on love; I refuse to believe I’m done.
In times like this; I remember a quote from my mother,
That “there are no perfect people, but people perfect for each other.”
You see that special woman is out there; and I know that she’s waiting,
She might even be repeating the same thing I’m saying.
That I’m tired of being heartbroken; and being all alone,
When all I ever wanted was a love of my own.

“Aint no sunshine when she’s gone,” but “good things come to those who wait.” Just keep in mind that, “that which doesn’t destroy you, only makes you stronger.”