“By Myself”
I Think the time has finally come
To be by myself and start having fun
I've spent my whole life looking for that special girl
The whole idea, became my whole world
But after all the books and the lessons
I finally have a confession
This is hard to say and to do, but I have no other choice
Although I cry as I write this, the decision must be voiced
I can no longer deal with it, I have a new quest
To stay by myself, I think that would be best
Virginia is for lovers but I'm sad to report
That I think I've missed the mark I guess I've come up short
I've spent my whole life trying to fit in,
Failing to realize the beauty within
I'm no longer in the game, because I'm far beyond my time
But that's where I'll stay, because there I'm just fine.
I can't compete with those who don't play the game fair
But now it doesn't matter, because I really don't care
No more suttle adjustments, no more major changes
No more being someone else, as if I were nameless
No more empty pockets with nothing to show
Not even a love that's starting to grow
My world just grew cold
My life started to fold
It was all getting old
I had to break my mold
So now here I stand
As a completely changed man
Knowing all that I am
My head no longer in my hands
So I'll prepare to stay single, no longer for a wife
Until God gives me reason to turn around my life
Because for him and him only I'm willing to change
Because I know he'll help me continue to stand the rain.
Tuesday, May 27, 2008
The Future Pt. 2
"Moving On"
It's time to face reality, it's time to move on.
I have to cope with this shit, it's just a part of life
And I have to embrace it, even though it isn't nice
I have to learn once again to do things for myself,
And once again finally learn to do what's good for my health.
To the movies by myself
To the game by myself
Out in the snow by myself
Out in the rain by myself
To the beach by myself
To the park by myself
Out to dinner by myself
Those long walks by myself
You can only be lonely if you allow yourself to be
That's why from this day forward my best friend will be me
Why continue to spend time when it's not appreciated
Why spend time with a woman, when you could possibly end up hated.
What is this shit here for, why was this shit created
So at the end of the day, you can say that you've dated?
It's time to face reality, it's time to move on.
I have to cope with this shit, it's just a part of life
And I have to embrace it, even though it isn't nice
I have to learn once again to do things for myself,
And once again finally learn to do what's good for my health.
To the movies by myself
To the game by myself
Out in the snow by myself
Out in the rain by myself
To the beach by myself
To the park by myself
Out to dinner by myself
Those long walks by myself
You can only be lonely if you allow yourself to be
That's why from this day forward my best friend will be me
Why continue to spend time when it's not appreciated
Why spend time with a woman, when you could possibly end up hated.
What is this shit here for, why was this shit created
So at the end of the day, you can say that you've dated?
The Future Pt. 1
"In My Dreams"
(Based on a true story)
I dream of a family, I dream of a wife
I dream of the days I'll have sweet love in my life
I hate it being lonely, but I'm fine being alone
So I often dream of the day you'll finally come home
Walking through the door instead of my mind
But waiting for reality takes such a long time
I dream of a daughter, just as beautiful as her mom
And a son like his father whose "got it goin' on"
I dream of walks on the beach, walks through the park
I wish this dream would come to light, but it remains in the dark
I dream of emotions, supported by actions
I dream of our love, joined permanently with passion
I love going to sleep, because that's where the dream begins
I hate waking up because that's where the dream ends
Until the beautiful day when I finally meet you
Until the beautiful day that all my dreams come true
My heart will keep yearning, my mind will keep talking
And my body will just have to keep on sleep walking.
"Good things come to those who wait."
(Based on a true story)
I dream of a family, I dream of a wife
I dream of the days I'll have sweet love in my life
I hate it being lonely, but I'm fine being alone
So I often dream of the day you'll finally come home
Walking through the door instead of my mind
But waiting for reality takes such a long time
I dream of a daughter, just as beautiful as her mom
And a son like his father whose "got it goin' on"
I dream of walks on the beach, walks through the park
I wish this dream would come to light, but it remains in the dark
I dream of emotions, supported by actions
I dream of our love, joined permanently with passion
I love going to sleep, because that's where the dream begins
I hate waking up because that's where the dream ends
Until the beautiful day when I finally meet you
Until the beautiful day that all my dreams come true
My heart will keep yearning, my mind will keep talking
And my body will just have to keep on sleep walking.
"Good things come to those who wait."
The Present Pt. 2
“Facing Reality”
Yes I've done it, I've graduated from college
But when dealing with women it all seems like useless knowledge
People say I'm successful, they say I'm going far
But lately it seems that I'm not even making par
It's like a spell, or a curse
In which I'm fully immersed
I see the accomplishment, but not the reward
I put in the hard effort, but I still get ignored
I'm alive in the books, but dying in my soul
I'm really not sure how much longer I can hold
Hold on to my being without making a change
Into the very man about which women complain
I've long stood my ground, I've put up a good fight
But I guess I'll have to face it, I'm just not their type
Praises and compliments I hear them all the time
But they never seem to make sense in the back of my mind
"Your wife will be happy, she's going to have a lot of fun"
But all I can think to myself is "Why won't you be the one?"
I hear what you're saying
But I can't put it together
"Why won't you be my wife, if things will be so much better?"
I've only met a few men in my entire life
Who graduated from college and now have a beautiful wife.
Yes I've done it, I've graduated from college
But when dealing with women it all seems like useless knowledge
People say I'm successful, they say I'm going far
But lately it seems that I'm not even making par
It's like a spell, or a curse
In which I'm fully immersed
I see the accomplishment, but not the reward
I put in the hard effort, but I still get ignored
I'm alive in the books, but dying in my soul
I'm really not sure how much longer I can hold
Hold on to my being without making a change
Into the very man about which women complain
I've long stood my ground, I've put up a good fight
But I guess I'll have to face it, I'm just not their type
Praises and compliments I hear them all the time
But they never seem to make sense in the back of my mind
"Your wife will be happy, she's going to have a lot of fun"
But all I can think to myself is "Why won't you be the one?"
I hear what you're saying
But I can't put it together
"Why won't you be my wife, if things will be so much better?"
I've only met a few men in my entire life
Who graduated from college and now have a beautiful wife.
The Present Pt. 1
"Words (Unspoken)"
They're like a pen with no ink; they're like form without function
These words unspoken lead to a silent destruction
If I could reverse the script, if I could replay the act
If I could do it all over, I would take it all back
If I'd just had composure, if I'd just had more time
If I'd just had the courage to say those few lines
If I’d have opened my mouth, instead of keeping silent
If I'd have let it all out, instead of trying to hide it
We'd still be together, you'd still be all mine
Instead I feel like I've committed a crime
Sitting here running it all through my head,
Sitting here thinking of all the words I should have said
The worst mistake of my life, such a valuable loss
At such a small price at such a small cost
It wouldn't have cost me a dime, just the movement of my tongue
But because I refused to, we are no longer one
Now the book of my life is missing so many pages
All because of a few simple phrases
I'll no longer be able to see you I'll no longer be able to hug you
It doesn't mean much now, but I want to tell you "I love you"
They're like a pen with no ink; they're like form without function
These words unspoken lead to a silent destruction
If I could reverse the script, if I could replay the act
If I could do it all over, I would take it all back
If I'd just had composure, if I'd just had more time
If I'd just had the courage to say those few lines
If I’d have opened my mouth, instead of keeping silent
If I'd have let it all out, instead of trying to hide it
We'd still be together, you'd still be all mine
Instead I feel like I've committed a crime
Sitting here running it all through my head,
Sitting here thinking of all the words I should have said
The worst mistake of my life, such a valuable loss
At such a small price at such a small cost
It wouldn't have cost me a dime, just the movement of my tongue
But because I refused to, we are no longer one
Now the book of my life is missing so many pages
All because of a few simple phrases
I'll no longer be able to see you I'll no longer be able to hug you
It doesn't mean much now, but I want to tell you "I love you"
The Past Pt. 7
“Love Of My Own”
The beginning was like a dream we were the perfect couple,
But somewhere along the line we started heading for trouble.
So we decided to take a break and go our separate ways,
With the understanding that it was for a limited number of days.
While on the break another man toyed with your life,
And while yes I did hurt me I couldn’t let go of my future wife.
Besides it’s technically not cheating if we’re technically not together,
But is it wrong of me to expect both of us to be better?
Well we got back together and sure enough things got better,
But much like the first time there was a change in the weather.
I said “do what you must do, because I want you to stay,
I want you in my life; I don’t want you to go away.”
I knew that it would hurt, but I loved you too much to lose you,
And the first time it worked, but the second time I had no clue.
That your heart would end up in the arms of a stranger,
And I would end up in this emotional love triangle.
Lucky for us I got a huge promotion,
It was closer to you so we could handle these emotions.
The arguments were getting louder and the fights more intense,
So I quickly moved up-state because I thought it was distance.
It was for me a new career and for us a new start,
But it ended up being just another broken heart.
It wasn’t entirely your fault; I know I became complacent,
But was that really a reason to take the last two years and waste it?
Now I’m struggling to hold on minute by minute,
If I’d only known sooner that your heart wasn’t fully in it.
I have to hold on; I know things will get better,
I can’t fall apart; I have to keep myself together.
I thought it was over but now the search must continue,
The search to find my soul-mate; what I thought I’d found in you.
Now I have to start over in more ways than one,
I refuse to give up on love; I refuse to believe I’m done.
In times like this; I remember a quote from my mother,
That “there are no perfect people, but people perfect for each other.”
You see that special woman is out there; and I know that she’s waiting,
She might even be repeating the same thing I’m saying.
That I’m tired of being heartbroken; and being all alone,
When all I ever wanted was a love of my own.
“Aint no sunshine when she’s gone,” but “good things come to those who wait.” Just keep in mind that, “that which doesn’t destroy you, only makes you stronger.”
The beginning was like a dream we were the perfect couple,
But somewhere along the line we started heading for trouble.
So we decided to take a break and go our separate ways,
With the understanding that it was for a limited number of days.
While on the break another man toyed with your life,
And while yes I did hurt me I couldn’t let go of my future wife.
Besides it’s technically not cheating if we’re technically not together,
But is it wrong of me to expect both of us to be better?
Well we got back together and sure enough things got better,
But much like the first time there was a change in the weather.
I said “do what you must do, because I want you to stay,
I want you in my life; I don’t want you to go away.”
I knew that it would hurt, but I loved you too much to lose you,
And the first time it worked, but the second time I had no clue.
That your heart would end up in the arms of a stranger,
And I would end up in this emotional love triangle.
Lucky for us I got a huge promotion,
It was closer to you so we could handle these emotions.
The arguments were getting louder and the fights more intense,
So I quickly moved up-state because I thought it was distance.
It was for me a new career and for us a new start,
But it ended up being just another broken heart.
It wasn’t entirely your fault; I know I became complacent,
But was that really a reason to take the last two years and waste it?
Now I’m struggling to hold on minute by minute,
If I’d only known sooner that your heart wasn’t fully in it.
I have to hold on; I know things will get better,
I can’t fall apart; I have to keep myself together.
I thought it was over but now the search must continue,
The search to find my soul-mate; what I thought I’d found in you.
Now I have to start over in more ways than one,
I refuse to give up on love; I refuse to believe I’m done.
In times like this; I remember a quote from my mother,
That “there are no perfect people, but people perfect for each other.”
You see that special woman is out there; and I know that she’s waiting,
She might even be repeating the same thing I’m saying.
That I’m tired of being heartbroken; and being all alone,
When all I ever wanted was a love of my own.
“Aint no sunshine when she’s gone,” but “good things come to those who wait.” Just keep in mind that, “that which doesn’t destroy you, only makes you stronger.”
The Past Pt. 6
"The Hidden Meaning"
You're the woman of my dreams and your happiness is my desire
So when I say that it's for you, it means I'm placing nothing higher
I know the person on the outside is the person you really want to be
So I'm looking much more deeper to set the woman inside you free
When you say you're getting chubby, and your hair is looking bad
I look directly at you and see the beauty you've always had.
I know it seems like I'm fighting you and on a different page
But my goal is to enlighten you and bring you better days
The fussing the fighting is my most fearsome enemy
because every time we do it I feel you're getting rid of me
But I have to continue because I want you to take something away
And that's if you don't have me at least you'll have much brighter days
You alone are my lifes best accomplishment
and if you're not joyful what has this all meant
I'm not asking for happiness all of the time
But your fustration should not be the only thing on your mind
Now I wanna be your man, I wanna make it alright
So why wait till tommorow when we can start off tonight?
"It may not always look the same, sound the same, or feel the same, but you can always bet that the hidden meaning in everything I do is "I LOVE YOU!"
You're the woman of my dreams and your happiness is my desire
So when I say that it's for you, it means I'm placing nothing higher
I know the person on the outside is the person you really want to be
So I'm looking much more deeper to set the woman inside you free
When you say you're getting chubby, and your hair is looking bad
I look directly at you and see the beauty you've always had.
I know it seems like I'm fighting you and on a different page
But my goal is to enlighten you and bring you better days
The fussing the fighting is my most fearsome enemy
because every time we do it I feel you're getting rid of me
But I have to continue because I want you to take something away
And that's if you don't have me at least you'll have much brighter days
You alone are my lifes best accomplishment
and if you're not joyful what has this all meant
I'm not asking for happiness all of the time
But your fustration should not be the only thing on your mind
Now I wanna be your man, I wanna make it alright
So why wait till tommorow when we can start off tonight?
"It may not always look the same, sound the same, or feel the same, but you can always bet that the hidden meaning in everything I do is "I LOVE YOU!"
The Past Pt. 5
Lights Down Low"
Come in and take your shoes off
I'm prepared to set the mood off
As I play the soft music and rub your shoulders even softer
Tonight I have for you an irresistible offer
First an evening by the fire while I tell you I love you
I'll place my arms around you as I slowly start to hug you
Then a slow dance while I hold you close in my hands
A candle-light dinner prepared by your man
Now a rose pedaled, path, to a warm bubble bath
But as always you know that I've saved the best for last
This is my mission, my goal
I want your love to unfold
You've got me tripping, you've got me falling
Because much like R. Kelly I can hear your body calling
Turn the lights down low, cut off the ringer on the phone
I want to take us all the way to the pleasure zone
To the land of ecstasy
Just you next to me
A place full of pleasure
You'll see it's beyond measure
Nice and slow, just go with the flow
Because this is love and not lust,
And I want you to know.
All night long til' the break of dawn
I'm going to make you feel good because you've "Got it goin' on"
I've covered the dinner, the dance, the fire and romance
And it's all for you because you gave me a chance
I'm forever grateful, forever in debt
This is just the beginning, and on that you can bet
I'm going to make you feel special as you've done for me
Every opportunity I get it's you that I'll please
I love you and I'm proud of all the hard work you do
And I want you to know that you’re my queen, my angel, and my superwoman too.
Come in and take your shoes off
I'm prepared to set the mood off
As I play the soft music and rub your shoulders even softer
Tonight I have for you an irresistible offer
First an evening by the fire while I tell you I love you
I'll place my arms around you as I slowly start to hug you
Then a slow dance while I hold you close in my hands
A candle-light dinner prepared by your man
Now a rose pedaled, path, to a warm bubble bath
But as always you know that I've saved the best for last
This is my mission, my goal
I want your love to unfold
You've got me tripping, you've got me falling
Because much like R. Kelly I can hear your body calling
Turn the lights down low, cut off the ringer on the phone
I want to take us all the way to the pleasure zone
To the land of ecstasy
Just you next to me
A place full of pleasure
You'll see it's beyond measure
Nice and slow, just go with the flow
Because this is love and not lust,
And I want you to know.
All night long til' the break of dawn
I'm going to make you feel good because you've "Got it goin' on"
I've covered the dinner, the dance, the fire and romance
And it's all for you because you gave me a chance
I'm forever grateful, forever in debt
This is just the beginning, and on that you can bet
I'm going to make you feel special as you've done for me
Every opportunity I get it's you that I'll please
I love you and I'm proud of all the hard work you do
And I want you to know that you’re my queen, my angel, and my superwoman too.
The Past Pt. 4
"The Question"
Dear (your name) up until this point we've had many first and last together. Our first and last time together, our first and last long distance relationship, our first and last true love. Now, as we continue this thing called "you and I" I'd like to continue to enjoy more first and last together; our first and last time being boyfriend and girlfriend, our first and last child, our first and last wedding and above all else our first and last time saying goodbye, because hopefully soon I will be holding on to you forever, which I'm sure also means the last time your life will be overcome with stress and negativity. I guess what I'm trying to say is that life as a child, sister, and girlfriend can be one of the most stressful things that a person can bear, and life as someone's wife can be just as painful, however I don't need to tell you that with the guy you're dealing with, his goal is to completely turn your life around. Now don't take this the wrong way, my goal is not to rescue you, however you must realize that the only person that you can change is yourself, and if those around you are holding you back, then the only thing you can do is leave, because no matter how hard you try, if they don't want to, they're not going to change. So I don't want to rescue or change your life. I just want to remove those who don't care and almost seem to try to head you in the direction of self-destruction. So if you would do both me and you a favor and stop being everyone else's stress relief and be my wife it would truly make me the happiest man in the world. So (your name), will you be my wife?
Dear (your name) up until this point we've had many first and last together. Our first and last time together, our first and last long distance relationship, our first and last true love. Now, as we continue this thing called "you and I" I'd like to continue to enjoy more first and last together; our first and last time being boyfriend and girlfriend, our first and last child, our first and last wedding and above all else our first and last time saying goodbye, because hopefully soon I will be holding on to you forever, which I'm sure also means the last time your life will be overcome with stress and negativity. I guess what I'm trying to say is that life as a child, sister, and girlfriend can be one of the most stressful things that a person can bear, and life as someone's wife can be just as painful, however I don't need to tell you that with the guy you're dealing with, his goal is to completely turn your life around. Now don't take this the wrong way, my goal is not to rescue you, however you must realize that the only person that you can change is yourself, and if those around you are holding you back, then the only thing you can do is leave, because no matter how hard you try, if they don't want to, they're not going to change. So I don't want to rescue or change your life. I just want to remove those who don't care and almost seem to try to head you in the direction of self-destruction. So if you would do both me and you a favor and stop being everyone else's stress relief and be my wife it would truly make me the happiest man in the world. So (your name), will you be my wife?
The Past Pt. 3
"When I Think Of You"
When I think of you I see
All that a woman is supposed to be
Everything right, and nothing at all wrong
You're the anatomy of perfection, you've really got goin' on
Beautiful lips, hips, down to your fingertips
From the top of your head to the soles of your feet
Everything about you is perfect, you are truly complete
When I see you I'm in paradise, the standard of excellent
Your love and devotion is my most valuable present
A gift sent down from the heavens above
The woman of my dreams, the woman I love
Your legs, your thighs
Your pretty brown eyes
Your hair your skin
I'm trying to take it all in
I just can’t get over you, your blowing my mind
I just can't control it, I'm starting to show signs
I can't believe it I'm so infatuated
With the most beautiful thing that God has ever created.
I just thought you should know exactly what you mean,
And how the man you love feels about the woman of his dreams.
"God Never Makes a Mistake, and He Certainly Didn't Make One On You!"
When I think of you I see
All that a woman is supposed to be
Everything right, and nothing at all wrong
You're the anatomy of perfection, you've really got goin' on
Beautiful lips, hips, down to your fingertips
From the top of your head to the soles of your feet
Everything about you is perfect, you are truly complete
When I see you I'm in paradise, the standard of excellent
Your love and devotion is my most valuable present
A gift sent down from the heavens above
The woman of my dreams, the woman I love
Your legs, your thighs
Your pretty brown eyes
Your hair your skin
I'm trying to take it all in
I just can’t get over you, your blowing my mind
I just can't control it, I'm starting to show signs
I can't believe it I'm so infatuated
With the most beautiful thing that God has ever created.
I just thought you should know exactly what you mean,
And how the man you love feels about the woman of his dreams.
"God Never Makes a Mistake, and He Certainly Didn't Make One On You!"
The Past Pt. 2
The Moment of Impact
As I look at you walk by
As I stare clueless as to how to approach you
As I try to overcome the fear of rejection
I approach you and with a human sacrifice a sacrifice of myself, my body, my soul
I approach you with faith, hope, and confidence
My adrenalin rises
My manhood is tested
My head tells me to elude
My heart tells me to embark
I try to walk away, but infatuation won’t let me
As I approach you, I stare you in the eye
My focus is completely on you
As my lips slowly open,
As my eyes slowly get wider
I finally gather the courage to offer myself to you
Finally my suspicion is brought to a close
My curiosity is turned to conclusion
And Finally I realize that the moment of impact is simply a prelude to the blissful conclusion which God has already made in Heaven.
“One Cannot Always Expect To Be Hooked Up, For all Chains Do Not Share Common Links…….”
As I look at you walk by
As I stare clueless as to how to approach you
As I try to overcome the fear of rejection
I approach you and with a human sacrifice a sacrifice of myself, my body, my soul
I approach you with faith, hope, and confidence
My adrenalin rises
My manhood is tested
My head tells me to elude
My heart tells me to embark
I try to walk away, but infatuation won’t let me
As I approach you, I stare you in the eye
My focus is completely on you
As my lips slowly open,
As my eyes slowly get wider
I finally gather the courage to offer myself to you
Finally my suspicion is brought to a close
My curiosity is turned to conclusion
And Finally I realize that the moment of impact is simply a prelude to the blissful conclusion which God has already made in Heaven.
“One Cannot Always Expect To Be Hooked Up, For all Chains Do Not Share Common Links…….”
The Past Pt. 1
“The Look of Infatuation”
As you walk down the hall I see you in the corner of my eye and immediately my head is drawn to you,
My attention is completely on you and for a brief second my self-control is in your hands.
I’m lost in your world,
I’m taken in by your beauty,
I’m moved by your elegance.
Your physique is amazing,
Indeed so amazing that I can see your intelligence shining through it with each heel that hits the floor.
You’re smart, but sexy;
Cool, but with class.
Your everything is my every desire;
In fact so much that in my dictionary the definition of beautiful is (your name).
Now I apologize for staring
But it gets difficult when beauty is constantly staring back at you.
As you walk down the hall I see you in the corner of my eye and immediately my head is drawn to you,
My attention is completely on you and for a brief second my self-control is in your hands.
I’m lost in your world,
I’m taken in by your beauty,
I’m moved by your elegance.
Your physique is amazing,
Indeed so amazing that I can see your intelligence shining through it with each heel that hits the floor.
You’re smart, but sexy;
Cool, but with class.
Your everything is my every desire;
In fact so much that in my dictionary the definition of beautiful is (your name).
Now I apologize for staring
But it gets difficult when beauty is constantly staring back at you.
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